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Mah jong
2003-03-23 @ 23:01

I had a binge today. Fuck!! I ate a crispbread besides my nutridrink. It has 27 kcal. I'm going to gain so much weight. I hate it, and I hate myself because I don't have any self-discipline.

I've been with one of my best friend to day, *Cc* and her boyfriend Kjelli. It was great. We played this Chinese game, mah jong. It was awesome, and the bestpart was that while *Cc* and Kjelli ate tons of pizza and drank regular coke, I only drank one glass water. But I guess *Cc* and Kjelli needed that pizza less than me, because Kjelli is at my height 5'8" and his weight is 165 pounds, that means he has a BMI of 25.4. Gross!!!! And *Cc* shes 5'10" and her weight is 158 pounds, that mean a BMI at 21.5. Nasty!!!!If I had weight that much I would have taken suicide. I almost took suicide when my BMI was 19.4. It was disgusting. Fat all over my body. Not that I disliked fat people, but I think it's disgusting when I'm fat.

xoxo Nemi

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